Freaking out here....

As I said in my previous post....I think...I had another apointment today. Well, they took some tests, one of which didn't work so I have to go back tomorrow, and he still isn't sure of what is wrong. We asked about a couple different ideas we had and he said he didn't see any signs of them. In a way thats good because our ideas were serious, like brain related stuff. But, it's KILLING ME!!!! Not only do I have troubles seeing but no one knows whats wrong and it'd driving me nuts. One thing I've already learned from this is that it's a whole lot easier to be a good believing Christian when the bad thing is happening to someone else. I've always been the one to say have faith, its ok, He will do it on His time....now I don't know if I'm believing it myself when all the poeple around don't know whats wrong, let alot have a cure. I have another appointment tomorrow. After this test tomorrow he said he doesn't know. He said we can try glasses, but in the eye exam test my doctor said there isn't a strong enough perscription. AKA: glasses won't help. So, after this test, I'm done. Whether they know how to fix me or not. I don't know if I can hold myself together any longer.......